Journal Entry # 5 : Ordinary Me

My mother shares the satisfaction
Of my success
My father shares the pride
Of my achievement
None shares me for me
And in that I am alone

Their eyes
Looking at a prodigy
Not seeing the child
Their ears
Hearing the accolades
Not listening to the cries

The next Einstein
They want me to be
The next Mozart or Picasso
They call out to me
None wants me to just be me
And in that I am alone

I see other children
Like me
Unlike me
Running towards the future
Of uncertainty

I long to be with them
For they belong to a simpler life
I loath to be with them
For they represent what I cannot have

To watch Spongebob
And not be appalled by the idiocy
To read Harry Potter
And not fret about philosophy
To be common and not extraordinary
To be all this
Is a dream to me

Promises (from a husband)

I wanted to, I swear I do
But I’ve got so much work to do
Come on dear, don’t look so blue.
You do understand, don’t you?

Of course I remember
That promise I made
Long ago during our courtship
Come on dear
Stop pouting those lips
It is, after all
just a silly trip

I promise dear
We’ll go next year.
Just you and me, alone together
Now, now dear
No need for that sneer
I won’t forget
like I did last year

Since I couldn’t
Get you the real deal.
I did the next best thing,
I’m giving you a glimpse.
Happy birthday darling!

Wish you were here...not! (To a friend)

Wish you were here
To see and feel
The beautiful sun, all shiny and bright
The wind softly caressing our tresses
The warm grains of sand beneath our feet
Schools of fish swimming merrily

But,
If you were here
You’ll only see and feel
The sun burning your skin
The wind messing up your hair
The sand getting stuck in your pants
The fish nipping your toes

When
You seek the wrong in all that’s right
And fill my ears with all your moans
You’ll push away tranquil and calm
I realise then that
I didn’t want you here at all


So,
Hear me now
Slayer of peace
Go back from whence you came
And leave me in heavenly bliss!